I am going under the knife again.
On November 5th I am having two procedures - a tilt table test and a electrophysiology cardiac ablation. Next week I am also going to have an ultrasound of my heart, but that won't be invasive.
The tilt table test and the cardiac ablation scare me, for different reasons. I won't go into too much detail, basically the former has me strapped to a table, with EKG electrodes stuck to me, and an IV given to me. This is to see how changes in tilt/altitude/speed can affect my heart and cardiovascular system.
The latter has a catheter and I hope they knock me out completely because I can't take my anxiety medicine.
I hate living like this. One thing after another. And all along some of it could have been avoided if the local doctors weren't so fucking stubborn. The cardiologist says symptoms arose as early as 2006 and was concerned, with my history, no one looked at it sooner.
... I'm scared. Partially because I feel people might think I deserve this. Yet I wouldn't wish this on anyone.
EDIT: Stupid me was a day off. Midterm elections are on the 4th. This caused me confusion.